I noticed I have not written in some time. I tell ya TIME is my hang up. There is just not enough TIME in a day! Oh well such is life. We have all been sick but I think the germ curse is finally leaving my household. It does not hurt my feelings one bit! I saw some Robin's in my yard last week and now my flowers that the boys' planted this past fall are up and blooming. I love SPRING! I feel alive and well! Brian has been working on his car the past few days. I think he finally got it all put back together again. It was the radiator and water pump. So now he has his car, but the bad thing is the baring is going out on my water pump to my blazer so now he will have to fix that as well. So I guess I will not have a vehicle again! Ugh! We are going to Waverly, Ohio tonight cause Brian has to preach. I am thinking of letting the boys' stay home tomorrow if we get home late. Otherwise they will have to go. My lower back has been really hurting today. I sure hope the ride and sitting all the time will not make it worse!

I know I may seem like a BIG cry baby when it comes to my weight, but I guess it is just a touchy subject with me. Something I want to get off so bad, but like someone told me earlier today if "we" honestly wanted to get the weight off "we" would be doing something about it. ~Like really trying~. First off I have to be honest and say yes I have tried but then quit. Okay so now it is time to pick myself up and dust off and get back on the diet ride and put some super glue on the seat of my britches this time!! I have been reading a book called Dieting clues for the clueless. Alot of the material really makes sense. I need all the clues I can get! Ha! Anyway I have tried different sites on the web to help make me accountable... to no avail I fail at that! So I made a blog for my weightloss @..... http://www.everydayhealth.com/profile/mommabear97

My code name is mommabear97. Not sure if my readers will need that or not.

Today was midterms for the boys. Zack got the same grades as he did on his report card which is fantastic and Logan brought up ALL of his grades he has mostly A's and B's and I think one C and one D. He is doing great!!! The baby made a big mess for me to clean up today. He decided to break 3 eggs in my kitchen floor. Hmm I know eggs are a great conditioner for your hair, but the floor?

Just got a call from Brian and he is going to be running late tonight. He is stopping off to see an elderly man at Thomas Hospital. So more time to be on the computer... not! Isaiah is wanting my attention.... have a good night!

I had wrote a post yesterday which I ended up deleting. I am a railroad ride of emotions right now. Nothing seems to be going the way I want it. I seem to do things wrong all the time. No one seems to be pleased with anything I do or try to do. I have made my mistakes and my regrets... and there is not really anything I can do to change the past. Sometimes I wish I can turn back the clock and restart the day or the moment in which the mistake happened. It would be so nice to be Dorthy in the Wizard of Oz and the GREAT Oz would grant any request I have.... maybe the request of getting this weight off. I realize there are no magic pills out there, but trying and trying is not getting me anywhere either. Surgery is not the option for me either. One no money, two Brian would not allow it, three I personally do not want it. I just wish I was the size I was when I was in high school... or even when I first got married. In high school I weighed 120/125 and when I got married I weighed 150/155. I guess that is enough of my boo hooing....

The boys are doing good. Zack got 3rd place in the school's art contest and was 5th in a young readers writing a story. Logan is doing really well in school. He has been getting A's and B's on most things and some C's! I am so proud of him. Isaiah is growing like a weed, I had to buy him size 7 shoes today. He is talking a lot more and saying more words. A couple of my favorites are mama, cheese, mommy. get, no... amen!!!

Anyway not much else is going on around here. Good night!